Lets Get Fit 4 Life

It's always in the back of my head if on the day that my grandma,my grandpas kids and some few other family members went to the funeral chapel to talk with the people there if it had sunk into my family's head that my grandfather had committed suicide.  Before we got down to finding out what anything was going to cost they asked what had happened. At that point nobody was saying anything it was like a silent glaze. So I just opened my mouth and said well I guess sense we aren't aloud to see him one last time because of the situation. The guy looked at me like what do you mean. I said he shot himself in the side of the head so we can't see him one last time. The guy was like oh I'm so sorry he said he just received the file and hadn't had time to look at it.  I was upset at the situation. Which I knew everyone else was in there own way but I had to speak my mind it was hard to hold back.  My grandfather didn't want to be barred in a coffin he wanted to be cre

·         Disclamer don’t continue if you cant handle what your about to read or deciding to continue to read on what I have to say. I’m putting this disclaimer out for basically family and any friends who in may way of saying things come out strong that I want to say it and I just want to inform you in advance that this is going to be in my own words and if you don’t think you can handle reading it, then PLEASE don’t read it, cause I warned you in advance and I’m doing what I need to do for me to help with this and to make awareness of this issue. Thanks. Continued…. April 16, 2015 will be a day that will never be the same. It will never be a normal day, it will always be a day that I’ll always wish never existed. April 16 th no matter what will always be a day that will be stuck in my head for the rest of my life as my heart stopped beating.         So lets go back to April 16, 2015 1 year ago to this day, worst day every. I did my normal morning routin

April 15,2015 was the last time I will ever see my papa. I will never again be able to see him. I still can remember what that day was like and what went on that day that it’s unreal. That morning I toke my son to school. Then I went home to finish some small stuff around the house and about a couple hours before lunch time I went up to my grandparents house to see them and visit them and hangout with them until I had to go pick up my son from school. Everything that day seemed normal there wasn’t anything out of place that didn’t seem different from any other day when I would go over to my grandparents house. After I picked up my son from school we went home and had dinner, after a while we went back to up to my grandparents house so my son could see our grandparents.         Well my grandfather asked me if I would take him to the smoke shack to get some cigarettes and lottery tickets, which of course I did. I loved my grandpa so much I’d do anything for him. Well, I had no